This infection and hospital experience is so much more painful than the original surgery to remove the tumor. I’m actually in the same hospital room, 408, but this time I’m by myself.
Part of it is just the mechanics of it all … There is no comfortable position to lie down with the way the wound is situated. I sort of have to twist towards my left side, so now my neck has spasms, yay.
Glazier is going to rewrap it tomorrow and I will try to get him to do it so that it’s possible to lie down. I also want to see what is under all this gauze. I’m assuming the scalp is covering the opening in the skull? My entire head feels so stretched and tight. There is so much swelling.
My sister Tina died from a head injury with so much swelling. They tried removing some bone to alleviate the swelling. I can’t get her off of my mind. Triggers are relentless. I keep dreaming of her last day, wake up a crying mess.
At least the PICC line is in, so I’m not being poked a million times a day anymore. The pain and discomfort is making me sleep an hour at a time.
I’m going to ask about probiotics tomorrow. Can those be prescribed?