I have a lot of updating to do, but so much that it seems to daunting to start, so I’m just going to jump in where I’m at and get over the fact that it isn’t neat and orderly and all in one place.
Short version: Surgery so successful that I only spent one day in the ICU, and went home a day later.
The before and after shot just show the difference the surgery made. Coming out of the anesthesia, when they asked me how I felt, I said that I felt 100% better, back to myself. I was obviously high on drugs, but seriously, the flaming ball of hot poker spikes in the middle of my head was gone for the first time since the end of last year, and the relief is amazing.
The first night in the ICU was truly bizarre. The steroids that they have me on to prevent brain swelling have the most bizarre side effects. It felt as if my brain was going through a hard drive defrag, and all sorts of really old memories would flash in front of my eyes, and I could slow it down and read words on it. Things like Jeremy’s Homework Assignment Book (HAB) from 6th grade, next to a view from my grandmother’s kitchen window. Fireworks and scenes from space movies, flying through the stars into worm holes and such. It was sort of cool at first, but just would not stop and started to freak me the hell out. I’ve since heard that for some people, it’s flying snakes and spiders, so I guess I got off easy.
Due to that sensitive reaction though, they are weaning me off of them very, very slowly, over a month instead of two weeks.
I keep wondering what is actually physically happening in the middle of the brain. Does the space where the tumor was fill up with fluid? Does the brain slowly readjust into that space? I’ll see the surgeon again on 10/9, and my PCP earlier to take out the staples.